The Next Day.

How's everybody's day going?

My productivity level has risen from yesterday, so that's an improvement. Productivity yesterday consisted of watching way too many shows online, simming for multiple hours, with 0 exam study or working on my essay. Is this a common occurrence for anyone else? Sometimes, just in my circle of friends, I feel like like the dud person with no life or willpower. They're all working hard, studying, being active; and then there's me. Sure, I go through the phases. It's a good place to be - so why can't I motivate myself to reach that level where you feel amazing and life is good? 

Well, I'll pin it down to pathetic excuses and a negative state of mind. I keep telling myself (and this has been my motto for much of the uni semester); 'Once all my work is done, I can focus on exercise and being productive'. Good motto...maybe for a week or two max, not 10. That's how it has been and seems it will continue to be until next Monday when ALL work will have officially ended. 

Of course, I don't have to follow what I'm saying - in fact I really shouldn't. I've been listening and following that piece of advice for many weeks and where has it gotten me? Nowhere. I'm low on life and haven't done proper exercise in a very long time. I'm convinced I've put on weight and that just makes me even more upset. The bottom line is: I'm scared. The place I'm at right now may not be great, but its...comfortable. I stay at home, occasionally do work and eat food. I'm at the lowest point both mentally and physically, and the challenge to become fit and happy; well that's a big challenge. One I've been avoiding. No longer.

Let's be practical. I'll do my work, get it done and PROMISE myself that things will absolutely, definitely change next week. For now, I'll get out of the house and start walking, get my 10,000 steps for the day, try and eat healthy, and mentally prepare myself to rise up to this challenge. 

I suppose some long term goals will help; I'm going on a holiday with my friend to the Gold Coast in a months time. A good opportunity to get fit and happy. An even bigger incentive? Well that would be my older, beautiful, perfect cousin's wedding to her good-looking, nice Italian  fiancee. Oh, the bitterness. That wedding is in September, so I have plenty of time to get fit and look 'fab' if I stick to it. Maybe, there'll be some hot Italian friends and family members around...

So that's where I'm at. I hope this isn't a boring/repetitive post...I figure there must be a few people out there who may be feeling a bit like this, just 'stuck in a rut'. It's a big jumble of fitness, health and happiness issues with a dash of work and productivity thrown in. 

Good luck for anyone else out there, I know I certainly need it!

L xx

My first time?

Hey everybody (anybody?)
I believe this is my first proper blog post - ever. I've been meaning to blog for a while now, for some reason it just hasn't happened until now. In terms of what my blog is going to be about...well, that's a good question. Nothing specific, I think. Just a variety of everyday inspirations - ideas and complaints no doubt. If you haven't checked out my personal info, I'll do a quick run down here. 

My name is Laura, I'm 20 years old, living in Melbourne, Australia and am currently attending University. I study Arts - nothing too fancy. I enjoy my life, sometimes I wish I did more things or went out more but I guess effort, insecurity and just generally being a homebody means I'm not out every Saturday clubbing to the early hours of the morning. When I mentioned insecurity, this stems from my early teenage years where I was overweight and hated myself and my life. I won't get too depressing talking about it, as far as I'm concerned, that's my past, its shaped who I am now, and I'm a much happier person now that I've 'taken control of my life' and lost 15kg. 

I'm single, and have been since hmm I was 14? I've always wanted a proper relationship, but that's just never happened and sometimes I think it never will! Although, part of me really doesn't care at all. I like being alone and doing the things I enjoy; I'm used to it. Things I do in my spare time include: Playing Sims 3 - love it, I'm not creative in any way except in this game, re-watching my favourite movies - don't even ask how many times I've watched LOTR, SW or HP. I spend way to much time on the internet whether I'm watching fail compilations or makeup tutorials on Youtube, or searching around for pictures to post to my Tumblr. I'm very into Soundtrack and classical music as well as the 'latest' hits usually, anything goes besides extreme country. I also try and keep fairly active. I'm a member of my local gym, and when I have the determination and willpower I'll go, but there are a good many days of just staying at home, not moving, watching shows online and eating. 

Well, that's a bit of insight into me. There's not much to say, but loads more I could tell everyone? I have no idea how many times I'll blog, I don't know if there are any blogging 'rules' - I'm a newbie but hopefully I can learn a thing or two.
Look forward to posting,
L xx